Faith

Faith is something that can allow for anything to happen if we drop our pride and believe that it can happen. It is the thing that can literally move mountains:

"He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you" (Matthew 17:20-21).

See the thing here is that we have to faith to be able to do things that may seem impossible. If you think of it the word impossible can also be said as I'm possible and I like to think of it like that because of the passage above. "Nothing will be impossible for you." Faith is also something that either comes easily to some people or be a struggle for others, but it has to be something that God has complete control over.

Honestly, I have had my own share of struggles with my faith and I feel like some people don't realize that about me. Now don't get me wrong I've never questioned whether God exists or not because there have been times where there hasn't been any question whatsoever. As I'm writing this part I'm starting to get emotional because its hard to admit that I have struggled with my faith. When my ex-friend tried to commit suicide our junior year of high school and I just so happened to be there when she did it ultimately saving her life in the process it was so hard to deal with. I questioned my faith then because I felt so guilty over what happened, even though it wasn't my fault, and I couldn't believe that God would allow me to go through something that traumatic.  I have had other people come to me that were depressed, struggling with suicidal thoughts, and just feeling hopeless and I don't like it at times. I love being there for people, but I don't like how attached I get to what is going on with them because at that point it turns into a burden and it just keeps on piling up till I can't handle it anymore.

I know I need to just give to God and let Him handle it, but its so hard for me to do. It feels like my faith is tested all the time and I know it is meant to see if we can stay on God's path without doubting, but when things start getting difficult its so hard to stay on that path. I will never stop believing in Him because I know without a shred of doubt that He is real and that He has my back. I need to learn to give things/let them go when I start getting overwhelmed with all the stuff people come to me with. I will still be there for those who need someone to talk to, but I can't hold onto it because it will start to affect me in a way that I shouldn't be.

If you are struggling with your faith right now in this season of hurt because of all the crazy that is happening this year keep your head up and pray for God to help you through it. Its okay to struggle at times because being a believer isn't going to be all sunshine and rainbows all the times. There is going to be struggles that we have to face at times, but if we have God on our side we can get through it. For those of you who aren't struggling with your faith right now that's good. That means that God is a priority for you in this moment. We need to all learn to allow God to be front and center when it comes to anything that is going on in our lives; the good and the bad. We have to have faith that He will be there for us no matter what through anything.