"As they sailed, he fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped,
and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Master, Master, we're going to drown!" He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm.""
~Luke 8:23-24 NIV
There have been times in my life when it felt like I was in the middle of a storm and it was difficult getting through it. High school was hard for me especially when junior year hit because I had to go through something that I couldn't believe I had to face. One of my best friends at the time was going through depression and anxiety along with family issues, so everything came to a head and it wasn't good at all. One day we were both in our sixth hour reading The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien when she suddenly got up to head to the bathroom and I started getting a bad feeling, so I got up and followed her to make sure everything was okay.
I went to the bathroom and I was waiting for her because I wanted to walk back to class together when something happened. She attempted to hang herself off of the bar that went across the last stall that she was in with her belt and the second that the noose went tight I was right there. First I tried to untie the belt to make her drop to the floor and when that didn't work I wrapped my arms around her legs to lift her up, so she wasn't choking thereby saving her life. It was such a traumatic thing for me to go through that for a long time I felt guilty about it.
That incident made me feel like I was in the middle of a storm and it was so hard to get myself back on my feet afterwards because it kept on knocking me down when I tried to stand to move on from it. I knew God was with me and that I could overcome it, but at the time I found it difficult to make myself believe that. I was questioning God on why He made me experience that and why it had to be me, but I soon realized that if I wasn't there when it happened something entirely different might have occurred.
God never left me to deal with it alone and I had people who were helping me deal with it, which I was incredibly grateful for. That storm eventually passed and when it did I was in a better place even though I would get flashbacks of that day, but it was becoming easier to handle with time. The good thing that happened after that day was that she lived and she got help for it, which is a huge deal.
There will be struggles in our lives that will test our patience and our strength to keep going. We will need to acquire help from those who care for us and who will do everything to help us. If we feel like no one is going to be there for us we can turn to God who will be. He will stay by us no matter what for He has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5).
and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Master, Master, we're going to drown!" He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm.""
~Luke 8:23-24 NIV
There have been times in my life when it felt like I was in the middle of a storm and it was difficult getting through it. High school was hard for me especially when junior year hit because I had to go through something that I couldn't believe I had to face. One of my best friends at the time was going through depression and anxiety along with family issues, so everything came to a head and it wasn't good at all. One day we were both in our sixth hour reading The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien when she suddenly got up to head to the bathroom and I started getting a bad feeling, so I got up and followed her to make sure everything was okay.
I went to the bathroom and I was waiting for her because I wanted to walk back to class together when something happened. She attempted to hang herself off of the bar that went across the last stall that she was in with her belt and the second that the noose went tight I was right there. First I tried to untie the belt to make her drop to the floor and when that didn't work I wrapped my arms around her legs to lift her up, so she wasn't choking thereby saving her life. It was such a traumatic thing for me to go through that for a long time I felt guilty about it.
That incident made me feel like I was in the middle of a storm and it was so hard to get myself back on my feet afterwards because it kept on knocking me down when I tried to stand to move on from it. I knew God was with me and that I could overcome it, but at the time I found it difficult to make myself believe that. I was questioning God on why He made me experience that and why it had to be me, but I soon realized that if I wasn't there when it happened something entirely different might have occurred.
God never left me to deal with it alone and I had people who were helping me deal with it, which I was incredibly grateful for. That storm eventually passed and when it did I was in a better place even though I would get flashbacks of that day, but it was becoming easier to handle with time. The good thing that happened after that day was that she lived and she got help for it, which is a huge deal.
There will be struggles in our lives that will test our patience and our strength to keep going. We will need to acquire help from those who care for us and who will do everything to help us. If we feel like no one is going to be there for us we can turn to God who will be. He will stay by us no matter what for He has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5).
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