When there is something going on in our lives that start to weigh down on us and it feels like we are standing or drowning in a sea of darkness we have to remember that there will be a light in the distance to guide us back to the surface. That light is there for us to fix our eyes on so we can start to pull ourselves out of that total darkness. It might be hard or even impossible to be able to get back to the surface, but we have to remember that God will be there to help us out of whatever thing is going on that makes us feel like there is no way out. In John 8:12 Jesus says "I am the light of the world: he who follows me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life." We have to remember when we feel that darkness pulling us in to fix our eyes on God and the light so that we don't lose sight of who we are. The light will be there to guide the way and help us out of that infinite darkness. We just have to be strong through the trials that will try to make us lose sight of the presence of God. Isaiah 9:2 says "The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned."
This is a devotion that I wrote for my college choir class and I really struggled with how this turned out or in other words part of the reason why I wrote it. In my junior year of high school one of my best friends tried to commit suicide. The only reason why I knew this was because I happened to be there when it happened and I round up actually saving her life that day. For a while I felt incredibly guilty because I knew that she was struggling and that she was thinking of doing it, but even though I knew I didn't do anything to get her the help she needed. I know it wasn't my fault that it ended up the way it did, but I still thought that I could have done something to get her the help she needed. In a way I was reminded of that as I sat down to write the devotion that I wrote above.
I felt compelled to talk about this because I know people who feel trapped and closed in; kind of like being in darkness and who don't feel like nobody cares for them, but there is one person who does and that is God himself. God will always be there to comfort us when we need to be comforted and will never leave us no matter what. I am a Christian who strongly believes in this and I will stick with it no matter what. There are times in my life when something happen and I have to pray about it because if I don't then it just piles onto me until it feels like a big weight has been put on me and in order for that weight to be lifted off of my shoulders than I have to give it to God.
Another thing that prompted the devotion was the fact that my dad was in a really bad work accident July 7, 2015 and it was really hard to get through the first semester of freshman year because of it. He was working on garage doors and wound up falling 12 feet off of the forklift which ultimately lead to his entire face getting fractured, nine titanium plates in his head, both feet fractured (didn't find that out until 3 months later), and a hole in his frontal lobe. He was in a medically induced coma for four days, ICU for and four days or so and then was at Mary Free Bed for three weeks after that.
It was a dark time for me for a while, but because I had God to turn to I got through it. I didn't let what was going on to completely "drown" me in the inky blackness that is the dark because it is not beneficial in the slightest
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